One fine morning in September, I decided to wake up early on the next day , as Juniors were arriving to college on that day. I was excited to see whether ,atleast this year we have had any good looking girls in our institution.
I had planned last night to wear my black shirt with 'Peter England' pants and polished shoes,but apart from all these, I would have to catch my college bus which would arrive earlier than the regular timing. My driver was an asshole who waits for a gal more than three hundred seconds and not a even a second for a guy. Keeping all those in mind, I went to the bed and told my mom to wake me up earlier in the morning .
The next day ,
my mom shouted " Wake up Rahul??. Wake up??"
" Five more minutes mom... I said ".
" It 's already late", she said in a loud voice .
I looked perplexed
"What?" , My mom gave a dirty look at me.!
"Ahhh!!Nothing mom".
I came to know that the bus had left my stop 10 minutes earlier.
I was in a hurry, brushed and showered at the same time and did not worry about my dress which wasn't even ironed neatly.I ransacked the unwashed cloth basket and picked up my old jean. I had no time to wear shoes , so wore my ugly flip flops and left quickly from home to catch the local train , didn't even comb my hair.
Eventually, I got a seat in the train. I had a pricking feeling as if everyone were giving me a dirty look . I did not notice anybody, was just looking out as if I was enjoying the nature.
I got down,when the train reached Tambaram and called my friend to pick me up as his home was very near.
I asked him as we were riding along,
" Dude! , how about new gals this year? "
" U crazy ? How can u expect good looking gals in our college..... ", he said...
I casually said, " That's why I didn't even try to appear good in the first place " . I just came for attendance lag.
' Stomach burning ' to the extreme as my expectations were ruined this year too. I said to myself " Enna vazkha da ".
I entered the college as if I was entering the railway station bathroom , signifying we didn't have any interest to enter but have to.
I was sitting in the last bench of my class without any interest. My ears slowly perked up as my friends started talking about new entry girls. My friend started describing a gal " Ava semma structure machan, CSC 1st year".I slowly went closer to him to get to know more.
"Rahul!!" someone shouted with an irritating tone!!
I looked around for the voice?. It was my Digital signal processing staff who always sounded like a dog..
whow! whow!
People used to call her bull dog....! She always wanted everything to be perfect. First bench students always shake their heads to whatever she says... She pointed at me and told me to sit in first bench. I didn't have the patience to sit with those idiotic suckers, but their faces looked polite than the bull dog's voice. I was again starting to think of what the guys were speaking about and how the gal looks!
Bull dog appeared in front of me! Solve this. whow whow!!
I stood simply near the board and was gazing outside. My mam scolded me blah blah.. and went as the bell rang.I never used to mind what these people said and wouldn't take anyone's advice as I knew very well that I wouldn't follow it. Then I rushed to my place to start the conversation again, but those guys started talking about IPL matches which was a big craze that time. So I too didn't wanna make them talk about that and jumped into their conversation seriously.
I came to my bus at around 4 and was shocked to see that the first years had occupied the whole bus. Many new faces were sitting in the bus with neat formals , new bags, shoes and watches. I could see the faces with some excitement. Yes, in my first year I too was dressed up well ,but didn't care to continue that till the final year.After exactly 15 mins, the bus started to move from the college. As it reached half way, a gal with teensy-weensy lips with some flyaway strands of hair sticking to it, got down from my bus, but she did not appear anything too great like what I expected. She was like a 5 out of 10.
The next morning, I still remembered her face! It glowed with happiness, with her pakka dress and of course those teensy-weensy strawberry lips. I dreamt of tasting those strawberries, but BAM , the next few words I heard brought me down to earth from the high ride I was having " She's committed ", but my instinct said " She's for you ". She distributed chocolates to everybody in the bus as it was her b'day. She came closer to me... I was like " Don't look at her lips ". She gave me the candy, but my hands wouldn't stop shaking. I said "Akitha, Happy b'day ". I was smiling like a child inside, full of joy. My friend beside me started sniggering , as staffs, even Akitha turned to look at me. Akitha and I smiled at each other. I came to know that she's not the computer science gal. She was from my department which made me feel more closer and comfortable. I entered the class with that same childish smile on my face. That day I was bursting with happiness. I was over imagining.. letting my mind race into future.. about OUR marriage & some other things. Then I pulled myself back to reality " Ok let's first talk to her, get to know her , have an understanding with her and then if possible... ' approach ' her ", but Love does work out in unpredictable possibilities. Soon after I thought of taking the next step, a smart guy on a Yamaha bike came and picked her up on that evening. I had no reaction at that moment but shock. I thought he might be her boyfriend and got pissed off totally. My friend teased me a lot by having seen that, but I cannot digest the thought of picturing her with that guy . So, I thought of speaking to her first and then slowly ask about that guy.
I wore my black shirt on the next day and moved towards her bus seat. Some seniors had already teased her a lot. She was enraged so much because of all that teasing. Her face became contorted & red, blemishing her usually happy face with anger. I blurted out and laughed uncontrollably seeing her reaction!!.She got irritated to the core .. STFU ..she said.. I laughed out like "eeeehaeyhaey" by tapping the seats continuously. She got tensed to the extreme and started to cry. So I tried to console her but...
Who knows what happens the next minute ??....
Akitha turned happy suddenly and wiped out the ears when a sudden phone call came.. She was like awwwww!! baby awesome!! (the basic girls reaction). I was eager to know who was on the phone. I assumed it to be her mom,dad or her friend. Suddenly it struck my mind "May be that Yamaha guy..aiyayo". I was praying to God ,that guy shouldn't be at the phone. Akitha suddenly went near the bus door.It seemed to me as if she was gonna get down at some other stop.She got down at that stop but before getting down,she got my phone number .I was like "Yeahhhhhh" giving last minute FIFA goal reaction...At the moment of saving her contact she was sitting in that Yamaha bike and said "Bye Rahul". My heart just ached that moment. Seeing her stylish position on the Yamaha bike I said " What an ass, he's a lucky bastard. It seems they were close from their school days. I badly wanted to know the realationship between them. Soon after I reached home, I got a message from her. I was in pure bliss and started texting her. All the problems of the outside world took a backseat then... I did not think of him at that moment,excitement coursing in me and started texting her all through the day.It goes on like "Wassup dude" to Dear ,Honey... ", then babe ,and once in a while a moody conversation. Days passed by! .We got closer and closer, like we could read each other's minds. Life went by happily ,but more lies at home, concentration off the books, kept distance from close friends too. My life was glued on her words never once considering to read between the lines. I did everything to make her happy and stay in my life.We became so close that she slowly took her mind off that Yamaha guy.
What else a guy needs... When his crush gives importance to him alone!!
Life goes on smoother and she had became the well-wisher in my life. I was so happy that had made a right choice in choosing a partner. A-Alluring ,K-kind, I- Intense ,T- Tremendous H- Hilarious, A-Affable. I couldn't find better words than these to express her character. How can I leave a gal who is caring and much understandable. I wanted to spend my entire life with her. Resting on her shoulder felt like heaven. I always held her hand so tight when we used to walk. Every time I touched her, my breath came in long pauses with some shiver that cannot be expressed. I had a fear of confessing my crush for her. We hadn't even talked about getting committed .We look at each other frequently whenever we hangout with her friends.She used to talk with many people, but every minute she glanced at me to see what I was doing!. Her eyes conveyed something but I couldn't comprehend it. She would just hold my arms tight whenever we talked to each other.
Meanwhile as we were entering final year, my friends were very concerned about campus interviews. They were developing themselves regarding the interviews, but I couldn't concentrate on these stuffs as my mind yearned to be with Akitha every time. So I bunked even my placement training conducted on my campus..I was confident of speaking at the interviews because I knew I could manage my English. I was strong on the familiar questions which those people ask and expect from each candidate. Though my preparation was not up to the level, I put on a confident face. The honest fact is that I was not inclined to prepare all these stuffs, as it meant... ' less time with Akitha ', but on a serious note I asked myself , " What are you doing"?..When are you gonna show your love for her?..." Can you live without her?? "..All these questions were running in my mind every minute. I couldn't concentrate on anything. Even Akitha's and my friend's hilarious acts annoyed me. I felt so uncomfortable because I was not answering myself. I should come to an culmination, but at the same time, I couldn't prepare myself for the simple fact ... " What if she doesn't love me? " . I didn't give up yet, as no other guy was close to her like I was. Finally one fine weekend, I decided to propose her. We planned to meet on the park close to her home. That was the day I had been waiting for...
Though I was casual and cool,looking at her made me shiver. She was approaching me " I didn't know what to speak", felt so ambivalent. Then I started...
" Akitha u know very well that we are more than friends and close like anything for the past 6 months"!!
" Yes ", she replied with a smile.
" I just wanna tell something to u. ".. I said
She said.... " what s the matter Dear !.. tell me! Why are you so serious?? "
" Huh .." .I took a long breath ....then I started again.
" Akitha, you know very well that I'm just living for you alone... I think about you every minute, every second.. We can't be friends anymore. I want u badly. I just ......Just " love u" ....I said.
My eyes were almost glistening with tears when I finished saying that.
Akitha smiled and said ... " See Rahul this is not the correct age for love ".
" What you're having is just an attraction.You said you can't live without me?? LOL ...please don't say that again...you lived without me for years ...We are good friends .. I love your companionship . I just love the way u speak".
" You are decent, smart and caring. Please don't talk to me if you're in the idea of proposing me... If so , erase that from your memory... I wont love anybody and I'm not the person to be loved ". and off she went from that place.
I didn't even know how to react to that. I was shocked and started to slap myself, that I ruined her good opinion of me. I had made a blunder and thought she might have hurt a lot. . I couldn't understand how even in that situation, I was still thinking of her. From the next day, we started to talk as usual but I was not happy as before. I couldn't stop talking with her, but at the same time was not happy at all.. There wasn't that feel that we had before.My friends were getting placed on high concerns all together and were updating their status on facebook. Everything seemed to irritate me. Akitha seemed to be avoiding me even though I was talking to her normally.The world turned upside down for me. The gal who I was living for didn't care for me. She was talking to me like a third person. I set aside my standards & came down from my moral high ground to maintain atleast the friendship we had before. I tried to act like a friend to her. But I could not. Days passed by..Months passed by..Her attention towards me completely went off...Everybody from my campus was shocked to see that we weren't talking. I ask myself every time " If she doesn't love me really ..then why the fuck did she talk to me about some sexy issues , saying lots of kisses, marry u.. will be with me for life time...?????....
I thought of asking her about these issues and I was ready to slap her at the moment if she hesitates, but I didn't. Anyway I knew well that I couldn't get her, so I just let bygones be bygones.
When I looked back no one was there to support me. Everyone were focused on their career. Some people were placed, some were doing extra courses and much more. I was the guy who hadn't planned anything about my career. I started to plan what all I needed to develop. Concentrating on those stuffs made me comfortable and better. At the same time I did keep texting Akitha even though there was no response. .
Akitha didn't give a damn as to what I was doing. I did not know what she was thinking about me. " Had I done any wrong? ". I didn't wanna end my relationship with her so soon.. So, I decided to speak with her straight away, but to no awail. She was not at all interested to look at me . I again started to follow her. I needed to maintain atleast some form of relationship with her. I was so hurt,even though I cared for her. I totally lost my dignity. As it continued longer, I firmly decided one day to move away from her, but I still hadn't found out the reason for her alienating me. Just proposing a gal doesn't create the need for them to avoid people, that too akitha?.. not a chance, but the reason behind it got revealed one day. I was shocked to hear that she is maintaining a relationship with yamaha guy. I came to know that she's on his side after we stopped to talk. . It was so obnoxious... I saw her hugging him tight while they riding on his bike. No person could digest when their crush was hugging or kissing someone. My life had got over. I just couldn't think that Akitha would do like this. She did not end her relationship with him. I came to an decision that if I still thought of her ,I would became a fool. I didn't want to think of what just happened, but at the same time,I always thought of those beautiful memories we had. It started off with a smile and ended in tears. I wasn't normal , just lived my life as it went. As months passed by, I controlled myself to not think about her. I made myself busy on every aspect.
I concentrated on academics ,started to hang out with friends ,read motivating books, but every second ,her presence made me to feel. Is she happy? ...Is her life going smoothly?.....but I thought " Love should be a part. It should not arrest our whole life ".. As time passed by,I felt that I ought to take responsibilities..I looked confident and started to maintain my dignity. Though I couldn't have her, " I did not give up on my life". As our academics decide our future, I focused on that point alone. I started to give my best in what I was doing. I started to think with an open mind . I made decisions with clarity. I recognized that " I had been living solely for her in the past"..." When you're not living for you ,then whom are you living for?? " .These kind of thoughts came to my mind frequently. Love is a beautiful feel but we should know well ,where it should exist. There is no use following a person whose not worth it. At the same time, love should just be a part.When we think more about it, it sounds awesome ,but kills us more. There's somethings larger than love, there's so many things to learn and explore. There are still immature people who are wasting their precious time and money to that feeling called "love". I too wasted ,but broke out at a point.
Enough wasting..
Rise up!!
"My Decision" is to be focused on career than love.
Loving the LIFE is better than love life…. My thoughts continue….
my mom shouted " Wake up Rahul??. Wake up??"
" Five more minutes mom... I said ".
" It 's already late", she said in a loud voice .
I looked perplexed
"What?" , My mom gave a dirty look at me.!
"Ahhh!!Nothing mom".
I came to know that the bus had left my stop 10 minutes earlier.
I was in a hurry, brushed and showered at the same time and did not worry about my dress which wasn't even ironed neatly.I ransacked the unwashed cloth basket and picked up my old jean. I had no time to wear shoes , so wore my ugly flip flops and left quickly from home to catch the local train , didn't even comb my hair.
Eventually, I got a seat in the train. I had a pricking feeling as if everyone were giving me a dirty look . I did not notice anybody, was just looking out as if I was enjoying the nature.
I got down,when the train reached Tambaram and called my friend to pick me up as his home was very near.
I asked him as we were riding along,
" Dude! , how about new gals this year? "
" U crazy ? How can u expect good looking gals in our college..... ", he said...
I casually said, " That's why I didn't even try to appear good in the first place " . I just came for attendance lag.
' Stomach burning ' to the extreme as my expectations were ruined this year too. I said to myself " Enna vazkha da ".
I entered the college as if I was entering the railway station bathroom , signifying we didn't have any interest to enter but have to.
I was sitting in the last bench of my class without any interest. My ears slowly perked up as my friends started talking about new entry girls. My friend started describing a gal " Ava semma structure machan, CSC 1st year".I slowly went closer to him to get to know more.
"Rahul!!" someone shouted with an irritating tone!!
I looked around for the voice?. It was my Digital signal processing staff who always sounded like a dog..
whow! whow!
People used to call her bull dog....! She always wanted everything to be perfect. First bench students always shake their heads to whatever she says... She pointed at me and told me to sit in first bench. I didn't have the patience to sit with those idiotic suckers, but their faces looked polite than the bull dog's voice. I was again starting to think of what the guys were speaking about and how the gal looks!
Bull dog appeared in front of me! Solve this. whow whow!!
I stood simply near the board and was gazing outside. My mam scolded me blah blah.. and went as the bell rang.I never used to mind what these people said and wouldn't take anyone's advice as I knew very well that I wouldn't follow it. Then I rushed to my place to start the conversation again, but those guys started talking about IPL matches which was a big craze that time. So I too didn't wanna make them talk about that and jumped into their conversation seriously.
I came to my bus at around 4 and was shocked to see that the first years had occupied the whole bus. Many new faces were sitting in the bus with neat formals , new bags, shoes and watches. I could see the faces with some excitement. Yes, in my first year I too was dressed up well ,but didn't care to continue that till the final year.After exactly 15 mins, the bus started to move from the college. As it reached half way, a gal with teensy-weensy lips with some flyaway strands of hair sticking to it, got down from my bus, but she did not appear anything too great like what I expected. She was like a 5 out of 10.
The next morning, I still remembered her face! It glowed with happiness, with her pakka dress and of course those teensy-weensy strawberry lips. I dreamt of tasting those strawberries, but BAM , the next few words I heard brought me down to earth from the high ride I was having " She's committed ", but my instinct said " She's for you ". She distributed chocolates to everybody in the bus as it was her b'day. She came closer to me... I was like " Don't look at her lips ". She gave me the candy, but my hands wouldn't stop shaking. I said "Akitha, Happy b'day ". I was smiling like a child inside, full of joy. My friend beside me started sniggering , as staffs, even Akitha turned to look at me. Akitha and I smiled at each other. I came to know that she's not the computer science gal. She was from my department which made me feel more closer and comfortable. I entered the class with that same childish smile on my face. That day I was bursting with happiness. I was over imagining.. letting my mind race into future.. about OUR marriage & some other things. Then I pulled myself back to reality " Ok let's first talk to her, get to know her , have an understanding with her and then if possible... ' approach ' her ", but Love does work out in unpredictable possibilities. Soon after I thought of taking the next step, a smart guy on a Yamaha bike came and picked her up on that evening. I had no reaction at that moment but shock. I thought he might be her boyfriend and got pissed off totally. My friend teased me a lot by having seen that, but I cannot digest the thought of picturing her with that guy . So, I thought of speaking to her first and then slowly ask about that guy.
I wore my black shirt on the next day and moved towards her bus seat. Some seniors had already teased her a lot. She was enraged so much because of all that teasing. Her face became contorted & red, blemishing her usually happy face with anger. I blurted out and laughed uncontrollably seeing her reaction!!.She got irritated to the core .. STFU ..she said.. I laughed out like "eeeehaeyhaey" by tapping the seats continuously. She got tensed to the extreme and started to cry. So I tried to console her but...
Who knows what happens the next minute ??....
Akitha turned happy suddenly and wiped out the ears when a sudden phone call came.. She was like awwwww!! baby awesome!! (the basic girls reaction). I was eager to know who was on the phone. I assumed it to be her mom,dad or her friend. Suddenly it struck my mind "May be that Yamaha guy..aiyayo". I was praying to God ,that guy shouldn't be at the phone. Akitha suddenly went near the bus door.It seemed to me as if she was gonna get down at some other stop.She got down at that stop but before getting down,she got my phone number .I was like "Yeahhhhhh" giving last minute FIFA goal reaction...At the moment of saving her contact she was sitting in that Yamaha bike and said "Bye Rahul". My heart just ached that moment. Seeing her stylish position on the Yamaha bike I said " What an ass, he's a lucky bastard. It seems they were close from their school days. I badly wanted to know the realationship between them. Soon after I reached home, I got a message from her. I was in pure bliss and started texting her. All the problems of the outside world took a backseat then... I did not think of him at that moment,excitement coursing in me and started texting her all through the day.It goes on like "Wassup dude" to Dear ,Honey... ", then babe ,and once in a while a moody conversation. Days passed by! .We got closer and closer, like we could read each other's minds. Life went by happily ,but more lies at home, concentration off the books, kept distance from close friends too. My life was glued on her words never once considering to read between the lines. I did everything to make her happy and stay in my life.We became so close that she slowly took her mind off that Yamaha guy.
What else a guy needs... When his crush gives importance to him alone!!
Life goes on smoother and she had became the well-wisher in my life. I was so happy that had made a right choice in choosing a partner. A-Alluring ,K-kind, I- Intense ,T- Tremendous H- Hilarious, A-Affable. I couldn't find better words than these to express her character. How can I leave a gal who is caring and much understandable. I wanted to spend my entire life with her. Resting on her shoulder felt like heaven. I always held her hand so tight when we used to walk. Every time I touched her, my breath came in long pauses with some shiver that cannot be expressed. I had a fear of confessing my crush for her. We hadn't even talked about getting committed .We look at each other frequently whenever we hangout with her friends.She used to talk with many people, but every minute she glanced at me to see what I was doing!. Her eyes conveyed something but I couldn't comprehend it. She would just hold my arms tight whenever we talked to each other.
Meanwhile as we were entering final year, my friends were very concerned about campus interviews. They were developing themselves regarding the interviews, but I couldn't concentrate on these stuffs as my mind yearned to be with Akitha every time. So I bunked even my placement training conducted on my campus..I was confident of speaking at the interviews because I knew I could manage my English. I was strong on the familiar questions which those people ask and expect from each candidate. Though my preparation was not up to the level, I put on a confident face. The honest fact is that I was not inclined to prepare all these stuffs, as it meant... ' less time with Akitha ', but on a serious note I asked myself , " What are you doing"?..When are you gonna show your love for her?..." Can you live without her?? "..All these questions were running in my mind every minute. I couldn't concentrate on anything. Even Akitha's and my friend's hilarious acts annoyed me. I felt so uncomfortable because I was not answering myself. I should come to an culmination, but at the same time, I couldn't prepare myself for the simple fact ... " What if she doesn't love me? " . I didn't give up yet, as no other guy was close to her like I was. Finally one fine weekend, I decided to propose her. We planned to meet on the park close to her home. That was the day I had been waiting for...
Though I was casual and cool,looking at her made me shiver. She was approaching me " I didn't know what to speak", felt so ambivalent. Then I started...
" Akitha u know very well that we are more than friends and close like anything for the past 6 months"!!
" Yes ", she replied with a smile.
" I just wanna tell something to u. ".. I said
She said.... " what s the matter Dear !.. tell me! Why are you so serious?? "
" Huh .." .I took a long breath ....then I started again.
" Akitha, you know very well that I'm just living for you alone... I think about you every minute, every second.. We can't be friends anymore. I want u badly. I just ......Just " love u" ....I said.
My eyes were almost glistening with tears when I finished saying that.
Akitha smiled and said ... " See Rahul this is not the correct age for love ".
" What you're having is just an attraction.You said you can't live without me?? LOL ...please don't say that again...you lived without me for years ...We are good friends .. I love your companionship . I just love the way u speak".
" You are decent, smart and caring. Please don't talk to me if you're in the idea of proposing me... If so , erase that from your memory... I wont love anybody and I'm not the person to be loved ". and off she went from that place.
I didn't even know how to react to that. I was shocked and started to slap myself, that I ruined her good opinion of me. I had made a blunder and thought she might have hurt a lot. . I couldn't understand how even in that situation, I was still thinking of her. From the next day, we started to talk as usual but I was not happy as before. I couldn't stop talking with her, but at the same time was not happy at all.. There wasn't that feel that we had before.My friends were getting placed on high concerns all together and were updating their status on facebook. Everything seemed to irritate me. Akitha seemed to be avoiding me even though I was talking to her normally.The world turned upside down for me. The gal who I was living for didn't care for me. She was talking to me like a third person. I set aside my standards & came down from my moral high ground to maintain atleast the friendship we had before. I tried to act like a friend to her. But I could not. Days passed by..Months passed by..Her attention towards me completely went off...Everybody from my campus was shocked to see that we weren't talking. I ask myself every time " If she doesn't love me really ..then why the fuck did she talk to me about some sexy issues , saying lots of kisses, marry u.. will be with me for life time...?????....
I thought of asking her about these issues and I was ready to slap her at the moment if she hesitates, but I didn't. Anyway I knew well that I couldn't get her, so I just let bygones be bygones.
When I looked back no one was there to support me. Everyone were focused on their career. Some people were placed, some were doing extra courses and much more. I was the guy who hadn't planned anything about my career. I started to plan what all I needed to develop. Concentrating on those stuffs made me comfortable and better. At the same time I did keep texting Akitha even though there was no response. .
Akitha didn't give a damn as to what I was doing. I did not know what she was thinking about me. " Had I done any wrong? ". I didn't wanna end my relationship with her so soon.. So, I decided to speak with her straight away, but to no awail. She was not at all interested to look at me . I again started to follow her. I needed to maintain atleast some form of relationship with her. I was so hurt,even though I cared for her. I totally lost my dignity. As it continued longer, I firmly decided one day to move away from her, but I still hadn't found out the reason for her alienating me. Just proposing a gal doesn't create the need for them to avoid people, that too akitha?.. not a chance, but the reason behind it got revealed one day. I was shocked to hear that she is maintaining a relationship with yamaha guy. I came to know that she's on his side after we stopped to talk. . It was so obnoxious... I saw her hugging him tight while they riding on his bike. No person could digest when their crush was hugging or kissing someone. My life had got over. I just couldn't think that Akitha would do like this. She did not end her relationship with him. I came to an decision that if I still thought of her ,I would became a fool. I didn't want to think of what just happened, but at the same time,I always thought of those beautiful memories we had. It started off with a smile and ended in tears. I wasn't normal , just lived my life as it went. As months passed by, I controlled myself to not think about her. I made myself busy on every aspect.
I concentrated on academics ,started to hang out with friends ,read motivating books, but every second ,her presence made me to feel. Is she happy? ...Is her life going smoothly?.....but I thought " Love should be a part. It should not arrest our whole life ".. As time passed by,I felt that I ought to take responsibilities..I looked confident and started to maintain my dignity. Though I couldn't have her, " I did not give up on my life". As our academics decide our future, I focused on that point alone. I started to give my best in what I was doing. I started to think with an open mind . I made decisions with clarity. I recognized that " I had been living solely for her in the past"..." When you're not living for you ,then whom are you living for?? " .These kind of thoughts came to my mind frequently. Love is a beautiful feel but we should know well ,where it should exist. There is no use following a person whose not worth it. At the same time, love should just be a part.When we think more about it, it sounds awesome ,but kills us more. There's somethings larger than love, there's so many things to learn and explore. There are still immature people who are wasting their precious time and money to that feeling called "love". I too wasted ,but broke out at a point.
Enough wasting..
Rise up!!
"My Decision" is to be focused on career than love.
Loving the LIFE is better than love life…. My thoughts continue….
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